I thought I had it all figured out. I was so "spiritual and evolved", charting my own course through the waters of life. Except, my ship kept crashing into the rocks, every time. 

I was a mess, my life was a long trail of broken possibilities, maybes, what ifs and what coulda beens…

 

I had always known there was a God and I liked Jesus, I didn’t have a grudge against religion.

I had my own style of spirituality that I felt was “right for me”: A mix of ancestral traditions from my Celtic, Nordic and Lakota heritage, combined with esoteric studies like tarot and astrology.

I was big into astrology. In fact, I did regular birth chart astrological readings and was about 30 pages away from finishing writing a 150 page astrology book when… 

God lost His patience with my esoteric prodigal meanderings and wanted to make sure I didn’t use the Gift He gave me for writing to lead other people down the same misguided, dangerous path.

 

So, leading up to Easter (but of course!) of 2016, through a heavenly hailstorm of supernatural divine intervention, uncannily timed road blocks, wake up call health issues and Jesus themed "coincidences" that were way too pervasive to deny, God got my attention and made it crystal clear that if I kept going down the road of Miss New-Agey, there was going to be big trouble ahead. 

 

So I turned! I said “Ok God! You got me, I hear You loud and clear. You want me to be a REAL Christian right? Not the loosey-goosey, new agey, hippie dippie  'Gnostic Christ consciousness' vibe I've been doing so far? Ok God! I’ll do it your way! I’ll go full on legit Christian, ok?! Here goes!”

 

I went all in.

I got rid of all my new age stuff and astrology books, and fell head over heels for Jesus.

I abstained from relationships to deepen my relationship with Christ, moved to the buckle of the Bible belt - Chattanooga, TN -  to really immerse myself in Christian culture (so none of my California hippie friends at that time could derail or mock me.... after all, it was coming up on election season 2016 and mock me they did!) 

 

And so there I sat for a year in TN, for the first time in my life - NOT PLANNING.

Not planning??!! NOT Planning! Wow...

Just praying every single day. “Ok God, I'm all Yours, what do You want to do with my life? I’m a wreck! Ive made so many mistakes. Please forgive me for all the stupid choices I’ve made. I’m all out of ideas here. I’ve tried everything I thought I wanted to do through my own will and the wind is knocked completely out of my sails! Please show me Your plan! Please be Lord of my life! Please take over!

What do You want me to do? I’ll do whatever You want, just SHOW ME!”

 

Well, after a year of that (and going to the awesome Calvary Chapel Chattanooga church every week, being immensely spiritually fed by the teachings and the fellowship, praying for long hours at night, talking to God, just being with Him… 

 

Whammo! I got my answer! In the middle of an epic prayer ramble about love and learning and heartbreak, God was starting to show me a coherency to the painful experiences I’d had in life.

I was starting to see a thread weaving them together that helped me understand how they were meant to shape me for a specific purpose and in the middle of that prayer and realization- 

A Story, A Screenplay, A Movie! With Music! It came flooding into my mind and I realized I had to write it down. 

 

Now, let me back up.. I grew up in the entertainment industry, but as an adult, I never wanted anything to do with it. I basically spent my whole life just trying to get away from it. I ran off to one obscure patch of ground after another, working on farms, with kids and elderly, animals and gardens, way out in the boonies or abroad...

Just not Hollywierd! No way... Uh uh.. No thanks. 

But... I always was 'super creative'... I just wasn't pursuing my real talents as anything other than a lukewarm hobby...much to the curiosity of those around me.

 

So when God hit me with a huge vision of an epic story that I knew I was meant to write into screenplay... a story that embodies the CS Lewis quote, “Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny” ... And I could already hear the music that would be in it and I could already see the hearts that it could heal… It all suddenly made sense. 

 

Now that God knew I was ready to put my will aside and submit to HIS will and serve HIM, He wanted me to go back to the industry I grew up in and use the talents He blessed me with to Glorify Him and to restore people’s faith in a God who loves them, has a plan for their lives and has used every hardship in their life to shape and prepare them for the epic saga of purpose, redemption and beauty that can be our story if we surrender to His will and let Him lead.

 

And like Moses parting the red sea, God has parted the waters of logical understanding and human limitation for me again and again with one mind blowing synchronicity after the next, making the impossible possible and continuing to connect me with His emissaries who share the same purpose.

As Jesus says in Matthew 6: 33, "Seek ye first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you".

Well, it’s true. God makes a way. He rocks that way.

He is the one and only Provider & Redeemer. Comforter and Counselor.

Deliverer and Healer. King of Kings.

He makes the most Awesome ways to get us to where He wants us...

“Where God guides, God Provides”

(That’s not just some phrase on a plaque in a Christian book store. It’s 100%  For Real!!)

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After many lost years of treading water in survival mode, He now keeps me afloat and keeps my bases covered better than I could ever do myself.

I ALWAYS have just what I need, at exactly the right time. Sometimes that's at the very last minute, which is a great test of how strong my faith is, but He ALWAYS comes through!

 

And so, in one lightening bolt season of my life, I went from being a wandering stoner, astrologer hippie, wild child who was always scrambling to make ends meet, who dreaded waking up every morning (because I didn’t know what I was waking up for!) plagued by regret and longing and sorrow about all the things that 'could have been', not knowing my purpose, always pushing to 'make things happen' (ugh!) and searching everywhere for some kind of lasting answer, peace and rest!

 

...To a passionate Screenwriter, Songwriter, Artist for and Faithful Servant of God.

And now I love waking up early every morning with a heart overflowing in excitement, joy and gratitude, firmly rooted in God's call on my life, divinely guided and provided for by a God who knows and loves me, pressing on in the hope and peace of knowing God's plan is good and I've only just begun and it's only going to get better and more amazing as He connects me with many fellow believers and creators working for HIS glory. My life is filled with so many blessings, it’s truly incredible!

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And the most humbling, awe inspiring part about it is that God prepared me for every part of this in all the years that I was away from Him.

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Just like He’s been preparing you…

Are you ready to find out His awesome purpose and plan for your life and to see all the broken pieces of your past be mended and healed and come together to create an epic story of grace, redemption, forgiveness and love? 

 

If He can do it for me, He can do it for anyone.

All you've got to do is ask... He'll take it from there.

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